Tuesday, December 17, 2013

nothing much...

Today is my last day of work... before my maternity leave... and before the whole department gets outsourced. I'm feeling rather apathetic about it. It will be nice not to have to come in and do a job that I don't enjoy but at the same time I'm feeling so unsure of the future and stressed out about having a new little one to care for, that I don't know if I can muster up any feeling about this transition in my life.

I'm feeling like such a debbie downer in other aspects of my life lately... it's irritating. I can only imagine what people around me must be thinking. I know JT is fed up with me, but there's really nothing he can do about it or I can do about it. It's not like I can control how I'm feeling. I am trying to be upbeat and positive and cheerful, but it's just so much easier to be positive for other people as opposed to myself.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.